The introverted-extrovert

I believe that it is imperative that after any sort of performance or expression of art, that self-evaluation is critical to growing as a person and in whatever you do. So, let's evaluate! Finally, initial scene performances are OVER! Worrying and stressing about a scene or a monologue is so draining- so we are all happy that we all got it over with!  (Again, prefacing this all with the fact that I had a fantastic and talented scene partner, who was willing to be patient and work with me!) I felt that our scene went better than expected- which is always a good thing. I was most worried about lines, because I did not prep as far in advance as I really should have. Next time I would do the work much farther ahead of time so that I could focus on the flow and arc or the scene, the depth of my character, the stylistic elements of the scene, rather than the memorization. But- I am proud to say, I did not forget one line! Some things did go 'unplanned' however, which, is ...

I am sorry I am pain. That knowledge impedes my every thought and stabs at each fearless facade. I am loud because I am small. Because I am used to no one listening. Because I have been told by those I love most that they "tune me out." Because I have been told by those I love most "Oh, I'm sorry are you talking to me?" "No, I'm just talking" my mouth replies. My mouth replies more often than I should allow it because it always, selfishly, has some story to tell or opinion to share and I cannot keep it chained up by the leash of pain for very long before it runs loose and yaps to the world about the spiders in my mind and the lump in my throat and I am sorry Something is tearing, screaming, pleading for life to not have to work this way but that collar will never stop growing tighter yet I will still never stop speaking what I really think. Feel the reverberating sounds of the earth's language of love and wallow in it's sobriety wit...

Before we talk about hard work and practicing your craft, whatever it may be- let's talk about scenes! I love doing scenes! Okay, let me actually correct that: Scenes, to me, are only fun when you've got a fantastic, hard-working scene partner. I have been lucky to have great scene partners in the past- and I am lucky this year to have another fantastic scene partner- the same one I worked with last year actually. Why do I enjoy scenes? Unlike monologues, you physically have another character there to work with. To me, nothing feels more successful or rewarding than when you and your partner do your scene well and powerfully, both of you glorying in that victory. You have someone who can energize and motivate you. If you've got a great scene partner too, I've found that being in a scene with another person connects you in a way you don't typically connect with anyone. I can't quite describe it as necessarily deep or extremely meaningful in all situations--but...

Before I share my love for scenes with you and my experience with them, as well as a few other things- Here is a link to my scene I am doing for any who would like to see it or use it in the future. It is bits and pieces from the play Fallen Angels by Noel Coward. Here is the link: https://docs.google.com/document/d/1DBCxkHPM6cuVjhCDraom9EGaMvvzOEspBVF23BgIqSo/edit?usp=sharing